I quote, therefore I think: Too important to change

And I think:

Once the war is over. . .

I’m a hypocrite. I say I’m all for peace, but I know war better. My blind allegiance, my undying loyalty, my automatic response is to go to war when it comes to me and myself. The ruthless and relentless march of fear over hope when I falter, fail, don’t measure up – is that not war?

We’re all such good little soldiers.

Why? Because war feels familiar. We know which guns to use, which knives are the sharpest and the weaknesses in our armor. We’ve been training our whole lives.

Peace feels . . . foreign. Distant. Mythical. And therefore, terrifying up close. It means letting go of the fear (the war) we know. We wish so desperately for things to change, for happiness, for light, and yet we’re far more willing to stock up on our old ammo.

Peace means laying down the weapons. Peace means not getting our usual thrills. Peace means a new way to do old things.

What could be more terrifying than not hiding behind war, and finally showing up? Who would we, could we, be if we didn’t go into battle?

At any rate, let’s just be honest about why we keep fighting, so we know what victory looks like.

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*Quote from Emotional Agility, by Susan David, PhD